20080829

Some things are just better left unspoken and undone.

20080720

I just really hope that I'm just being paranoid.

20080714

Sebastian feels stupid.
Sebastian cried.
Sebastian is sad.
Sebastian is lonely.
Sebastian is disappointed.
Sebastian had a bad fall.
Sebastian bled profusely.
Sebastian has a lot of things on his mind. ):

20080307

Today I experienced something totally uncalled for. It's sad that I actually have to say this, that AC actually have people with swallow minds, too much free time in their hands and nothing better to do. People that I've actually known since secondary school and primary school even. They are so childish and should just grow up. I'm so disappointed in them. But I guess I can't blame them, maybe they are just ignorant to it. Now I finally know why my friend actually did what he did. It's not really his fault so to speak, it was just people made him feel that way. Put yourself in his shoes and you will know what I mean, if not you will never understand.

Anyway, I really like the track team! We are one fun bunch! I really hope more people joins track and field! Then training will be so much more fun! But on the other hand, my body is giving me lots of problems! Bleah! I hope they all get cured soon!

It was a sad day.
It was a fun day.
Today is a bittersweet day. (:(

20080229

[Song: Filth in the Beauty - the GazettE]

AC didn't call...



They didn't call...



they didn't call...



OMG! They didn't f***ing call!



Until 5.15pm last friday! :DDDDDDD When I was training with the track team while the others all pang seh me and left for their OG outing! I ran straight away from the track to the office! My seniors took off their shoes and ran with me too! HAHAHA! They are such great people! We were like celebrating in the office and on the track! Campfire after that was damn fun! Even though I missed the rest of oriention. I'm so acfied! Haha.

Well, the past week of school has been great! But pretty tiring though. New school, new friends, new environment, new everything! I hope the rest of what's to come will be really good too. There's so much to say! Anyway, i'm pretty tired but I've to study now so I'll just end here!

Study time! GO SEB!

20080204

[Song: Sumire - The GazettE]

5 Donuts on monday,
3 donuts on tuesday,
another 3 donuts on wednesday, plus Fish and Co for dinner,
Sakae Sushi on friday for dinner,
Carl's Junior yesterday for dinner,
Pizza Hut for dinner today.

Oh my goodness! Look at my week's food intake! Very unhealthy right? Tsk tsk! I'm getting fat already. Okay this week I must go on a healthy diet and control my daily food intake! And save money too! I spent a lot last week!

Me (Looking into the mirror): Wah, I think my wisdom tooth is coming out eh. Quite pain.
Sis: Wah, somebody is getting wiser ah!
-.- HAHAHA! OMG LAME!

20080131

Sebastian laughed today.
Sebastian read today.
Sebastian cooked today
Sebastian danced today
Sebastian swam today.
Sebastian ran today.
Sebastian worked out today.
Sebastian did the house work today.
Sebastian did all these by himself today. :(

20080127

Filth in the Beauty

[Song: Cassis - The GazettE]

I've finally found a new Japanese Band that I really like after such a long time. Their name is The GazettE. Their songs are really good, but unfortunately, their price is not so. Haha, we're talking about playing $72 for an album? I think HMV is such a rip off when it comes to imported stuffs! I should have bought their albums back in Japan! Well, I guess I just have to slowly save until I have enough to afford them!

Oh speaking of which I just realised that I haven't even mention anything about my trip to Japan! Oh well, it was quite boring I must say, but I guess it's mainly due to it being a tour. I guess if it was free and easy, I would have enjoy it more. You know when I'm over there, I didn't even feel like I was in Japan? Weird right? My sister and I were thinking why, and we came up with some crap conclusion that maybe it's cause all the sign boards they have over there are all written in Kanji (which is chinese words) so maybe we feel like we're in China or something! Hahaha! But disney land was fun though, I must go back there some other time and finish all the rides in both land and sea no matter how many days it takes! And if I were to go back there again, Tokyo is more than enough for me! I just want to eat and shop, eat and shop there! :D I regretted not getting my triple jump spikes and my guitar stuffs there! Well, but it's not that I didn't tried finding okay! It's was just that it was really hard to find them there! You know Japan doesn't have boutiques around! That's why I couldn't get my stuffs! Even asics and ESP which are their Japanese brands was so hard to find! :(

Anyway, it's been 4 days since thursday, which was O level results day. I shall not say things like "don't ask me" or stuffs like that. I shall just tell you my results. I got 17. I'm not happy with my results at all, cause I was expecting 12 and below. Well, I guess whatever results we get is God given and we should just accept it for what it is and move on. I mean I know I could have done better but what's the point in saying that now right? It's already done and over with. There's nothing more we can do about it. There's seriously no point in whining about it or dwelling in it and make yourself unhappy. I think Os is just a small phase of our lives and I've seen many people who become successful in life despite not doing well for Os. We just have to believe in ourselves and start anew or else we will never improve. There's still A levels next and a long long way ahead of our lifes. I just hope now that my appeal into ACJC will be successful and that they give me the combination I want. That's all I care about now. And I'll start all over again there. I hope I can get the good progress award! Hahaha!

My school did exceptionally well this year! Isn't that good!? Haha! I'm so happy and proud of my cohort and alma mater! We had an average of 10.8! It's like the best in SJI history! and we managed to bring the school to band 1! :D The whole school was damn high during all the annoucements before we collect our results! You know it's like every year since sec 1, we hear the principal annoucing how well the seniors did and never had I thought we were going to be the batch with the best results! We were all going around to thank our teachers and stuffs after that. Congrats to those who got their single digits! SJI you should thank us for giving you all holiday on monday! SJI'2007 TITANS!

I was supposed to go and shop for my new year clothings today but in the end I didn't! :( All thanks to my mom, now I have no idea when I'm going to get them! Next week seems kind of late and there's no one to shop with me if I go on weekdays. I just really wanted to go out today, I don't know why also. But I guess I haven't been out for quite a while now. Oh well, I'll just go out next week for a shopping spree! :D And I've been looking up down, left right, upside down, inside out and everywhere for the Rubik's Revenge but they all seem to be out of stock! :( Since when people started becoming so smart to solve the Rubik's Revenge ah? Hahaha, nevermind, I'll just keep looking for it! There's Donut Factory waiting for me! :D

20080123

[Song: Fan - Epik High]

Look at the time and I'm still awake. It's been quite a long time since I stayed up this late. Imagine 35 hours from now. How I or rather most of us would be feeling. Would it be pure euphoria, or just despair? Well, I certainly hope it's the former that we'll be feeling. I just can't imagine if I don't make it. What will become of me? Dreams and hopes all gone. In an instant. Contrary, I could be everything I ever wanted to be. Well, let's hope for the best and expect the worse. All we can do now is pray and hope everything will turn out fine.

20080121

Someone please smack me real hard in the head. I think I'm being caught in it again. It seriously sucks. I can feel it. Oh my, What am I going to do?! I can't help it.

20080115

[Song: ナミダドロップ - Plastic Tree]

I received some pretty bad news yesterday when I thought it was going to be good. So here I am, back at home, doing my stuffs and all. Well, I hope it only last as long as this week. Anyway, according to what I heard, results are going to be out really soon, like next monday or something. It's like both a good and bad things to me. I'm very afraid that I don't get the results I want. It's scary just thinking about it.

Anyway, I think the AC track team spirit is quite good you know. It's like the number one cheerleading group! HAHA! I mean everyone is really supportive of each other and stuffs! We push each other on. It's something I seldom find in the SJI track team. Well, I noticed only the jumpers did that, not so the sprinters. But then again, I really miss SJI, my coach, the teachers and everything there. Maybe I'll go back soon to visit them.

Oh my goodness! I love T.O.P's jacket! It's so shiny! Why doesn't Singapore has jackets like these!?

20080109



[Song: Lose Your Mind - BoA]

Yup! That was my birthday cake! I wanted tiramisu, but then with it being quite hard to find at cake shops, my sister bought me a mocha favoured one. Well, it isn't that bad as well and there's still half of it left in the fridge! Who wants some!? Just tell me! I'll give it to you! Haha! And well, even though I didn't really like recieve any gifts or stuffs like that, I still thought I had pretty much a good 17th Birthday! Except for the stupid guard who told me off. I mean like I was quite surprised at the amount of people who wished me! Like even some who I haven't been in contact for such a long time! And I guess that pretty much made my day! Yup! Just a simple wish is more than enough for me! It's the thought that counts right!? Oh and stop saying I'm old okay! I'm not that old! Make me sound like some uncle la! All of you will reach the same age as me SOON! So you'll be old soon too! Nevermind, I shall get my revenge when your birthday comes as well! WATCH OUT! HAHAHAHAHA!

20071226

[Song: Sweet Impact - BoA]

I'm leaving in a few minutes time I guess. It's quite weird, it's like I'm quite looking forward to the trip but at the same time I can't bear to leave as well. And I still haven't finish watching witch yoo hee! Well, the 2nd part of the last episode didn't want to load. Stupid website! Well, I can always catch it when I come back! And there will be coffee prince! Anyway, I got my stuffs today! Like I spent all my money I got yesterday? Hahaha. 3 books, 1 game and new headphones to entertain me during the trip. And yup! I'll be spending my new year there.

Looking back, my holidays has been pretty much, guitar, slacking, training and ______ . Go fill in the blank yourself! That's if you can think what it is! And whatever you think it is is entirely up to your imagination ah! I shall not say anything! :D

DON'T MISS ME! :)
[Song: Rule The World - Take That]

So yup! I just ended my christmas with a christmas run in the middle of the night. And I tell you, my thighs were killing me the whole time, especially when I was running downhill! I had to shortened my steps and it felt like I was runnning constipated! Hahaha! It felt like as if my thighs were going to explode. I felt rather alright at home so I thought I could go for a run but I guess I was wrong.

Anyway, something really funny before I went for my run. I was putting on my socks and my cousins and I heard and really loud BANG! Haha! I immediately punched the air and shouted "ACCIDENT!" HAHAHA! I'm so evil! And the ironic thing was that my sister and I were telling our cousins about the accident last night and how many accidents that had happened there. But yeah, true enough, there was an accident at the cross junction just in front of my house, involving a taxi, a Honda Accord and some other car. All my cousins and I immediately rushed to the window to have a look! Hahaha! It was like their first time experiencing it. My family is pretty much used to it already, countless accidents had happened there already, so it's like nothing new. And the thing was that just last night, there was another accident! Also involving a taxi! Tsk tsk tsk! Taxi drivers are the WORST people ever! They cause freaking a lot of accidents, it's like almost every accident you see, it will involve a taxi. Not to mention that they drive recklessly, cut into lanes without signalling and beat red lights too. Man, I hate taxi drivers, traffic lights and crowded places.

I love this song. It's been on repeat for forever. It's the stardust Original Soundtrack for the ending credits. It reminds me of the movie, which was very nice! I think it's the nicest I've seen to far for my whole holidays! Better than Golden compass which was so overrated.

You light, the skies up above me
A star, so bright you blind me,

Don't close your eyes
Don't fade away
Don't fade away

Yeah you and me we can ride on a star
If you stay with me girl,
we can rule the world
Yeah you and me we can light up the sky
If you stay by my side,
we can rule the world.

If walls, break down, I will come for you
If angels cry, oh I'll be there for you
You've saved my soul
Don't leave me now
Don't leave me now

Yeah you and me we can ride on a star
If you stay with me girl,
we can rule the world
Yeah you and me we can light up the sky
If you stay by my side,
we can rule the world.

All the stars are coming out tonight
They're lighting up the sky tonight
For you
For you
All the stars are coming out tonight
They're lighting up the sky tonight
For you
For you

Yeah you and me we can ride on a star
If you stay with me girl,
we can rule the world
Yeah you and me we can light up the sky
If you stay by my side,
we can rule the world.

All the stars are coming out tonight
They're lighting up the sky tonight
For you
For you
All the stars are coming out tonight
They're lighting up the sky tonight
For you
For you
[Repeat]

OH OH! My younger cousins love my chocolate mousse okay! They kept eating away at it! Hahaha! Means I'm not bad okay! There's hope! Haha! But the only thing was that I thought the texture could be better and smoother. I guess the egg whites weren't fluffy and thick enough when I folded them in. But I found it too sweet? But the kids loved it! Nevermind, I shall try WHITE chocolate mousse next time! :D

20071225

[Song: Break It - KARA]
HO HO HO! MERRY CHRISTMAS! This the season to be jolly! Fa la la la la la la la la! Okay that was seriously damn retarded I swear. I for one, hate christmas carols. It's freaking irritating. I've been hearing it at almost every departmental stores I go to. Everytime I hear it, it's like "Okay, let's get the hell out of here". Haha! Hopefully I don't hear it again when I go out to get my stuffs tomorrow.

And I'm still pretty much crippled. Don't ever ask me to kneel or squat or walk down the stairs. I'll just collapse on the floor and in the case of walking down the stairs, I'll most pobably fall and roll down the flight of stairs.

Come come! Let me show you something extremely retarded but unique.

Yeah, that's the replacement my father bought for the chirstmas tree. HAHA! Well, we used to have one until he threw it away for whatever apparent reason!? It's so WHAT THE HELL?! When you see it for thr first time right? Don't know what my father was thinking! And that's the chocolate mousse I made. Yet to try it though. But I think it looks quite shitty. HAHA! Eh! But it's my first time okay! Better than nothing right! And I did it okay! Who say I wasn't going to do it ah! Prove you wrong man! Only that I forgot to buy the raspberries and whipcream to top it off. I bet it will look so much better okay!

20071222

[Song: Where'd You Go - Fort Minor]

Hi! My name is Sebastian and I'm crippled. Well, at least for now. The side effects of the AC training has been worse today. My body is aching all over, for reasons I know and do not know. Even my ribs are pain when I press them lightly. I can hardly walk properly, don't even talk about climbing up or going down stairs. It's a real torture. So you can push me around and watch me suffer in pain, but that would be pure evil, and I will get back at you! I think I can hardly even go for a run. I think I'm going to grow fat and die, especially during this feastive season. So i have to watch what I put into my mouth from now on. Speaking of which I want to make chocolate mousse! But there's so many recipes to choose from and I'm wondering when I should do it. Maybe I'll do it on monday. I'll just have to see how much I spend for tomorrow's christmas dinner at marche. There's also a few things I'll have to to get before I leave for Japan, so that I don't die of boredom.

But I'm really bored now.
Suddenly it's all silent. :(

20071221

[Song: And If I Fall - The Charlatans UK]

ACJC track training the past few days is seriously no joke man, but it's really fun as well! My legs feel damn shiok now! Haha! If you know what I mean. Well, the people and seniors there are really friendly, nice and supportive! I was quite late today and I thought I was going to be in shit, but thank God, I wasn't. It was the damn traffic jam okay! I swear! It wasn't my fault, I just didn't know why there were so many people today! Must be because it's a damn friday.

Anyway, I went to have my eyesight checked on tuesday and I have degree! OHHHHHH! It's 50 on the right and 25 on the left, yeah, it's really low. But so far until now, I don't have a major problem, I can still see ask clearly as ever! But I guess I'll have to make on when I return to school!? Just to see the whiteboard and all. I can't imagine myself in specs though.

The holidays are ending really soon! I don't want it to end this fast! Well, I guess time flies when you're having fun! And I did have fun! On days when I'm out that is! Teaching how to solve the rubik's cube and watching movies! I think I'm sort of starting to like catching movies. But I've been quite bored so I just have to find things to do and entertain myself! Up until wednesday that is, before I leave as well for Japan. Yeah and that's after christmas! Which is really soon and I hope it will be a good one!

20071217

I guess my prayers really work wonders! Haha! Well, I guess all is well now! :)

Anyway, I bet those bastards had the damn it intention.
I hope they get their retribution and burn in hell or somthing.
The world could do so much better without you.

20071213

Apparently I can't post videos now.
Screw you Blogger or Youtube!
You're such a pain in my ass!
Now I can't share with the world my GREAT DISCOVERY!
Haha!

You better watch it!
Cause I'll get back at you!

20071211

[Song: Snow ((Hey Oh)) - Red Hot Chili Peppers]

So my day hasn't really been much but, I've been clearing up my room. Well, mainly my O level stuffs. Haha, I'm such a good boy right? Okay, forget I even said that. Yeah I know I'm kinda slow. Like super, everyone has already cleared it ages ago I bet.

Before.

After. What drastic difference right? Haha. Now my table is like super empty.Before.After. I wonder if you can see the difference? Well, I mean there's still a difference you know?!And I threw away like 7? Or should I say 8 plastic bags of these size away. Hahaha. My room is like super empty now. And I threw away my sec 1 and 2 stuffs too. Goodness why I kept them for such a long time.

And it rained again! Stupid weather! Go eat shit and die! The sun better be out tomorrow!