I'm down.

Perhaps I'm too dependent.

Back to my old ways.

Contradicting myself.

I was just watching soccer when I suddenly thought about not doing things that will make you regret next time. It's like when you are a defender and you are tired. You see the opponent who has the ball. You are in a distance that is so close yet so far. You know you can just run there and block the guy from shooting. But you don't. He shoots and he scores the goal. You tell yourself that you are an asshole by not going just that extra mile and blocking that ball. Your team loses the game and you regret what you did.

It's things like that pisses you off and you wished you never did. You wished you went that extra mile to get the things you want. Well, that's life. You win some and you lose some. There's always ups and downs. Sometimes it's just having that little bit of energy to sustain you through tough times and you feel like breaking down and cry. Life's harsh, and perhaps the only way we can ever learn is through the hard way, by experience. Perhaps we should all love our parents and everyone close to us more if we haven't been cos we may never know when they will be gone, and when the time comes, you will wished you loved them more than you ever did, but it will already be too late. In life, you win not so much by how many obstacles you can overcome but how much you can take when obstacles come to pound you.