20061031

[Song: Scars-X Japan]

5.30am and I already awake. Haha. Cos I slept at 8p.m again. Actually I woke up at 3a.m. Jasmine asked me to do this. So here goes.

1) How old do you wish you were?
17? Cos that's my favourite number. Actually I feel like remaining at this age.

2) Where were you when 9/11 happened?
Singapore. Who gives a shit about 9/11!

3) What do you do when vending machines steal your money?
Whack it and then buy a new one again.

4) Do you consider yourself kind?
Don't know. What do you think?

5) If you had to get a tattoo, where would it be?
Shoulder Blade: A Wing.

6) If you could be fluent in any other language, what would it be?
Japanese of course.

7) Do you know your neighbours?
Yup! I know a lot of neighbours.

8) What do you consider a vacation?
Erm...anywhere where you can just have fun and relac one corner.

9) Do you follow your horoscope?
Nope...but I read it for fun.

10) Would you move for the person you love?
Definitely.

11) Are you touchy feely?
Don't think so.

12) Do you believe that opposites attract?
Definitely.

13) Dream job?
Doctor, but I don't think I can make it. Perhaps some famous Chef or Musician.

14) Favourite tv channels?
No favourite, whatever is nice on TV I just watch.

15) Favourite place to go on weekends?
No preference.

16) Showers or baths?
Baths.

17) Do you paint your nails?
Nope, but my sis wants to paint them clear for me.

18) Do you trust people easily?
Yup, too easily. Until I get bullied by them.

19) What are your phobias?
Heights, a little. Cockroaches, when I'm not wearing shoes.

20) Do you want kids?
Yup!

21) Do you keep a handwritten journal?
Never! Waste of time.

22) Where would you rather be now?
Japan.

23) Who makes you warm and fuzzy?
No one.

24) Heavy or light sleeper?
Heavy.

25) Are you paranoid?
Don't think I ever was.

26) Are you impatient?
Nope.

27) Who can you relate to?
Myself.

28) How do you feel about interracial couples?
Normal.

29) Have you been burned by love?
Erm...yes.

30) What's your pick-up line?
I don't use any. No originality.

31) What's your main ringtone on your mobile?
The one they give in the phone.

32) What were you doing at midnight last night?
Playing my guitar.

33) What did the last text on your mobile say?
"mmhmm"

34) Whose bed did you sleep in last night?
Mine of course! I LOVE MY BED!

35) What colour shirt are you wearing?
As in now? I'm wearing pyjamas, but it's blue.

36) Most recent movie you watched?
DOA

37) Name three things you have on at all times.
My cross, Watch and My Headphones.

38) What colour are your bedsheets?
Mainly Blue.

39) How much cash do you have right now?
I'm broke. Stupid Shit.

40) What's your favourite part of the chicken?
Thighs and Wings.

41) What's your favourite town/city?
Tokyo.

42) I can't wait till:
Erm...anytime? Oh until I get my very own guitar.

43) What did you have for dinner last night?
My mom's cooking.

44) How tall are you barefoot?
168cm? In school they measured 170cm. So I don't know. But I'm short and I hate it.

45) Do you own a gun?
My Dad does.

46) What do you prefer to drink in the morning?
Milo or Vitasoy.

47) Where do you think you'll be in 10 years?
In Singapore. Haha. Erm...Becoming what I want to be.

48) Last thing you ate?
The Japanese gummy thing.

49) What songs do you sing in the shower?
Any song that comes to my head, especially Yokan.

50) Last thing that made you laugh?
Stupid CS bots. Haha...actually I can't remember.

51) Worst injury you ever had?
A super deep cut on my head the required 5 stitches.

52) Does someone have a crush on you?
How would I know. Not that I care anymore.

53) What's your favourite candy?
I don't really eat sweet things.

54) What song do you want played at your funeral?
I'm already dead. Think I still can listen ah!

55) Eight people to do this?
Why must it be 8? Anyone actually.

Goodmorning!
Bye!

Nostalgia

20061029

[Song: Rocket Dive-hide]

Bright Pink
Hair Eye Liner
Lipstick
Big Jacket
Big Shades
You get a hide! Haha!

Yesterday went to my dad friend's place to learn guitar, FINALLY! Learn quite a lot actually. My Dad's 30 years old guitar was still with him, in good condition and I used it! Like Father like Son. Haha. He also lend me one of his electric guitar to practise on. Now I want to get an Acoustic Guitar too! I shall try to resist going out more often now in order to save money! I want to buy a lot of things and I want to clear the debt I owe my friends. Went to Tanglin mall after that for fine dinning. Tanglin Mall is really damn deserted! The place creeps me out.

Outing with COOL KIDS today. Well, not all of them. Only the us, haha, pathetic. Watched DOA as Anthony suggested, cos the other shows some of us watched before already. The show was actually not that bad la. Starting was a bit weird, but after you got used to it, it's quite nice. Haha! Peninsular Tomorrow! Yes! Psycho my Dad to buy me the guitar!

Goodnight!

Psychommunity
King of Cyborg Rockstar

20061025

[Song: Hades-Dir en grey]

Last day of school today. Sec 3 life passes by really fast. Doing the same things routinely everyday. Eat sleep study train, eat sleep study train. I think it's also the most stressful and difficult year so far in SJI. Getting into serious trouble, CCA stuffs, and many other things. At least now I have some free time to do the things I really want to do. Anyway, I think this holidays will pass by just as quickly as well. Come to think of it, I really miss sec 2 life. Air-con classroom, the class, the teachers, everything. Well, at least it's not as f*** up as my class is now. Sometimes I really hate this class of mine. When it comes to behaviour, they just don't know when to stop. Lets just hope next year will be a better year.

Training today in the raining again. Stupid rain always comes just before we are about to start running. Hope it doesn't happen on friday. Anyway, I don't think it will, training is in the morning. Oh and I think I have to go and tutor my primary 5 cousin. Haha, her FYE is this coming monday I think if I'm not wrong. I don't know whether to go or not. I mean I don't even know what topic the are studying now man. Aiya, see how la.

Tata!

20061024

It's 5.06am and I'm already awake, partly cos I slept at 8p.m yesterday. Haha. Super early. I think that Bro Michael talk yesterday was pretty meaningful.

Discipline

Love

Studies

Maturity

Life

ADD

HD


ADHD


I think I have both ADHD. Hmm...must go check it out. He said many other things too, many of which I could relate to. Training yesterday, finally! Ran in the rain. I remember I wanted to blog about other things too, but I can't remember now. Hahahaha. Maybe cos I just woke up.

GoodMorning!
Bye!

20061022

Busy day today, but I'm going to cut it short. Went to attend my nanny' son's wedding in the afternoon. Took quite some time. After that went to Peninsular to meet up with Rueben and Victor to check out guitars. Victor brought his dad along cos HE WAS GETTING ONE! Shit him man! I'm so jealous now. I have to wait for mine. Argh! Can't wait man. Holidays are boring so I need something to entertain me. Haha. He got a B.C Rich package with Amps for $450. Good deal. Rueben tested it for him. But I don't know who he is going to learn from. My dad's long time friend is going to teach me. Only thing is he stays in changi and me at Bukit batok. From one end to the other. Haha. Went home to change before going for the wedding dinner. 9 course meal and I'm so full now.

Basically that was how my whole day was used up.

Goodnight!
Goodbye!

20061020

[Song: Yokan-Dir en grey]

Okay, I was joking about me failing my english and getting retain. It's all bullshit that I came up with. Haha. Actually my result were relatively good although I think they could be much much better. I fail A.maths which I expected to fail straight away after I finished the paper. I could have done better if I had remember the earlier year's topic. I forgot all about them. Thats why I could do the paper. Shit man. Oh and I failed chem too which was expected throughout the whole level. Other than that, my results are quite good, but not satifactory. I could have done better for English and Physics which were both disappointing. Anyway, there is still one more year to improve. I shall not be disheartened.


Okay the holidays start next thursday officially, although it already feels like hoildays. Training is starting on Monday! Yay! Finally and My Coach is staying with us! Praise the Lord for that! Hahaha. Actually holidays are quite boring if you have nothing to do. I shall not go out so much now cos the more I go out, the more money I spend. I owe people money now. I'm a poor poor boy now. Plus I have to pay for my IC- $100!, Ez-link- $19 and other cards as well. Shit this man. I hate losing my wallet. I still hope some kind soul will return it to me. I think I shall spend my holidays, just training, studying, playing my guitar which I think I will get very soon, losing weight and going out occasionally.


I think I'm not going to cut my hair during the holidays.




Kaoru Niikura

Hide

I want to dye my hair BRIGHT PINK! Just like Hide! Too bad I can't cos I still have to go back to school. Maybe next time. See how. I love these 2 hairstyles though.

Oh and X Japan is SICK!
Yoshiki uses 2 drumsets!
Pata and Hide are damn good Guitarists!
It's kind of sad that Hide died though, at the age of 33 in 1998.
RIP Hide-sama.
Respect.

Byebyebye!

GIVE ME THAT GANESA!

Does it have to end this way?

20061019

Results today was bad. I failed English, which mean I need to retain in sec 3 next year. I can't be promoted to sec 4.

Life sucks.

20061018

[Song: Should I stay-Dreamz FM]

Had a drive
Driven by your love
But when you messed around
I lost the drive I found

Thought you needed
Needed someone true
But you changed your mind
Or had I failed you?

Wish you'd been
Careful with my heart
But you tore it apart
And broke an angel's heart

The kiss was true
Has to end somehow
But I am livin' proof of what love is about

It's hard holding you
Loving you, losing you
It's sad to be true
And be fooled by you
I don't know (I don't know)
I gotta know
Should I stay or should I go?

You played me on
Played me like a clown
But I feel for you
Eventhough I'm down

My heart is heavy
Heavy like a rock
But I am so amused
You're still in my thoughts

It's hard holding you
Loving you, losing you
It's sad to be true
And be fooled by you
I don't know (I don't know)
I gotta know
Should I stay or should I go?


Oooohh?should I stay?
Should I go?

It's hard holding you
Loving you, losing you
It's sad to be true
And be fooled by you
I don't know (I don't know)
I gotta know
Should I stay or should I go?


This time its done
It'll never feel the same
But we had some good times
Guess it's sad just the same

I guess the truth
Doesn't matter somehow
But you were livin' proof of what love is about?

THE FACE IN THE GLASS

When you get what you want in your struggle for self
And the world makes you king for a day,
Just go to a mirror and look at yourself
And see what that face has to say
For it isn¹t your father or mother or wife
Whose judgment upon you must pass,
The person whose verdict counts most in your life
Is the one staring back from the glass.
Some people might think you're a straight-shooting' chum
And call you a great gal or guy
But the face in the glass says you're only a bum
If you can't look it straight in the eye
That's the one you must please, never mind all the rest,
That's the one with you clear to the end,
And you know you have passed your most dangerous test
If the face in the glass is your friend.
You may fool the whole world down the pathway of years
And get pats on the back as you pass,
But your final reward will be heartache and tears
If you've cheated the face in the glass.

If you judge people, you have no time to love them.

The places that remind me of you.
You doing the same thing to me over and over again.

20061017

[Song: I hope you dance-Lee Ann Womack]

I hope you never lose your sense of wonder
You get your fill to eat but always keep that hunger
May you never take one single breath for granted
God forbid love ever leave you empty handed
I hope you still feel small when you stand beside the ocean
Whenever one door closes I hope one more opens
Promise me that you'll give fate the fighting chance
And when you get the choice to sit it out or dance

I hope you dance
I hope you dance

I hope you never fear those mountains in the distance
Never settle for the path of least resistance
Living might mean taking chances but they're worth taking
Lovin' might be a mistake but it's worth making
Don't let some hell bent heart leave you bitter
When you come close to selling out reconsider
Give the heavens above more than just a passing glance
And when you get the choice to sit it out or dance

I hope you dance
(Time is a wheel in constant motion always)
I hope you dance
(Rolling us along)
I hope you dance
(Tell me who wants to look back on their years and wonder)
I hope you dance
(Where those years have gone)

I hope you still feel small when you stand by the ocean
Whenever one door closes I hope one more opens
Promise me that you'll give faith the fighting chance
And when you get the choice to sit it out or dance

Dance
I hope you dance
I hope you dance
(Time is a wheel in constant motion always)
I hope you dance
(Rolling us along)
I hope you dance
(Tell me who wants to look back on their years and wonder)
I hope you dance
(Where those years have gone)
(Tell me who wants to look back on their years and wonder)
I hope you dance
(Where those years have gone)

20061016

Everything in life is stupid.

Life isn't worth it at all.

It has to end here.

Somewhere, somehow, soon.

So save me now, tell me life is beautiful.

I'm fading out, everything I know is wrong.

I try my best, but my best never seems to be good enough.













I will still be waiting though.

20061015

[Song: Again-Lenny Kravitz]

I've been searching for you
I heard a cry within my soul
I've never had a yearning quite like this before
Now that you are walking right through my door

All of my life
Where have you been
I wonder if I'll ever see you again
And if that day comes
I know we could win
I wonder if I'll ever see you again

A sacred gift of heaven
For better worse, wherever
And I would never let somebody break you down
Until you cried, never

All of my life
Where have you been
I wonder if I'll ever see you again
And if that day comes
I know we could win
I wonder if I'll ever see you again

At every time I've always known
That you where there, upon your throne
A lonely queen without her king
I longed for you, my love forever

All of my life
Where have you been
I wonder if I'll ever see you again
And if that day comes
I know we could win
I wonder if I'll ever see you again

All of my life
Where have you been
I wonder if I'll ever see you again
And if that day comes
I know we could win
I wonder if I'll ever see you again

All of my life
Where have you been
I wonder if I'll ever see you again
And if that day comes
I know we could win
I wonder if I'll ever see you again

I wonder if I'll ever see you again
I wonder if I'll ever see you again
I wonder if I'll ever see you again
I wonder if I'll ever see you again

I wonder if I'll ever see you again
I wonder if I'll ever see you again
I wonder if I'll ever see you again

LLTC was quite okay. Some activities were quite enriching especially those held at night. I wouldn't say it was a wonderful camp, due to times when the facilitators spoilt the camp for us. Poor Yvan fell into the drain in the morning and hurt himself badly. Haha. Plus I'm having cramps on my legs now. After not running for 3 months, and finally running during LLTC.

I feel kinda shit now. I still want my wallet back. I don't take it lightly when I lose something especially important to me. I hate losing my stuffs.

I'm sorry for my thoughts.

20061012

So exams are over but I'm sort of sad now. Cos I lost my wallet today. Within that 15-20 mins, i lost my wallet and I don't know where it is! Perhaps I should have just gone home with you, thn maybe i could have found out that i lost my wallet earlier. I just hope some kind soul will return it back to me. Pray for me pleaseee.

I shall say no more.

Thank you for being so understanding.

20061002

There was no class yesterday. Eeyer. Stupid la.

Anyway, went to get my hair cut. While waiting for my turn. My Dad told me the our car number plate number "3875" came out for 4D! First prize somemore! WTF! He should have bought it man! Thn imagine what Guitar I could buy with that money! Haha. We could be some millionaire now. My Father stop buying the number cos he bought it that last few times and it didn't come out. Last time it was his Handphone no. it came out Second prize! Wah. Anyway, he stop Gambling already, except the occasionally ones like Majong during chinese new year and stuffs like that. Guess he really change over the years. Like quitting smoking and gambling. Finally what I have been telling him for years has gotten into his head. I kept telling him that if he stop gambling and smoking, he would have alot of money to spend on other things, which he realise that only now. Haha.

Anyhow I don't really believe in those things, plus gambling is bad. I don't like gambling cos I'm afraid to lose money! haha. Thats why you never see me gamble. I believe that what's not yours is not yours. So even if you don't get it, it's fated. Easy come, easy go. Things never come easy in life, unless are some super rich person. Thn thats another story. Oh and until yesterday thn did my Mom realised that my sis has an Ipod nano. Hahaha. After how many months thn my moms knows about it!

I think I shall end here.
I will blog after FYE.
Got to go and study now.

Bye!

11 days left, and I'm missing you badly.